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DEATH TO 2024

• Emerson Dameron • Season 5

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Intro

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If you can't forgive but you like the idea of forgiving , don't forgive but say that you did Commit to not forgiving to the point where you're okay with lying about it and saying I forgive you , and then get credit for forgiveness for being the grown-up and keep in your back pocket an option to later on take revenge . They will not see

Commit to the Bit

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it coming . They thought they were forgiven . Jokes on them , slow burn . Not a bad idea if you commit to it . The relationship was , from the beginning , turbulent and extremely manipulative . I could tell she was angling for a relationship , a possibility I was careful to not commit to but also not foreclose on . The sparks and friction from the relationship made me a lot sexier . I had myriad side pieces during that time .

Sultry Secrets of Pulse-Pounding Passion

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She was very good at positioning herself as the prize , triangulating with mutual acquaintances , particularly her ex-boyfriend , a cartoonishly morbid bartender who liked to be seen reading Kal-El back on the clock . She tried to control me through sex , sussing out my cakes and then holding them against me , or inviting moments of vulnerability and then exploiting them . Through that process I learned to play my cards very close to my chest and hide my feelings . That made it very hard for me to effectively flirt . It sapped me of my mojo . The sexual gravy train ground to a halt and by that time , for whatever reason , I actually wanted to make things work with her .

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Absolutely annihilate your emotions . Emotions last for 90 seconds until you start telling yourself stories about them . To hell with that . Let the critics decide who you are . Brutally strangle your emotions , kill them dead . Fill up a little self-compassion . You can do that by annihilating your own weakness . Carve the block that is you . Make a beautiful statue , create yourself .

The Experiment Requires That You Continue

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You are your finest creation . Creative destruction is how you got started . Destructive creation is what comes next .

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Build supportive relationships with other brutal , stone cold killers . You'll find them . At some point your reputation will precede you . Sure , you can make that happen by taking action . Put your name out there , put your signature out there . Shake the ground in a way that only you can . Trademark meta-bombs you drop . You're taking action every day .

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You can overcome the matter of frustration , of living in this world being surrounded by fools , cowards , liars , scum . Take out the garbage and I like love bombing because it's one of the only ways to get through to me . Unfortunately , that's kidding on the square , meaning telling a joke . That is also a statement of fact . All of my relationships have been dangerously intense . Yes , I realize that I am the common denominator in these . It's my problem . I'm working on myself , and by working on myself I

The Love Bomber: A Bite-Sized Erotic Thriller

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mean I'm practicing yoga so that eventually I can perform autofillatio and then I will be happier than I ever imagined possible .

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Dear sadist , I've discovered my partner watches a lot of porn and it's making me uncomfortable . How do I approach this conversation without shaming them and find a middle ground that works for both of us ? First of all , eliminate the possibility that your partner wants to be shamed , which is a significant one . Since the saturation of broadband internet

The Ambivalent Liminal Rebellion

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, we've been deluged with all forms of pornography , much of it violent and degrading . I'm not interested . By and large , none of it will ever come close to the libertine , decadence , transgression , violence , mutual degradation that characterize my own sex life . Most people who prefer the experience of jacking it to porn over actual sexual intimacy , congress other kinds of torture , are afraid . They view the Sex Act on some level as a performance . They are afraid of underperforming , disappointing you , letting you down , which in turn indicates a fear .

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Her expulsion was something that needed to happen for everything since to have happened , which made possible everything that will and can happen , and also it was kind of hot . She got to hand it to Ariel . That was a dumb move . It was demonic , ice cold Really getting into her shadow , whether she knows it or not . And you shall find that

Carnal Candyland: A Bite-Sized Erotic Thriller

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there's work to be done . Maybe Candy can meet her there . Maybe give her a call right now to see if she's in there and she's lonely .

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And adorable , bold blasts are inspiring . Exciting , ignite , beautiful , fascinating jumpstart , breathtaking , intriguing kickstart , dazzling , riveting launch , gorgeous , tempting quickstart , stunning , thrilling , speedy swoon , transform , supercharge , swoon worthy turbocharge .

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Smuggle , lust , challenge , begging , discover , memorability , crave , extraordinary , captivate ,

War All the Time

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decadent , hack , genius , delirious . Latest memorableious , latest memorable fantasy , life-changing , undeniable , forbidden , magic , unforgettable , irresistible miracle make that .

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Commute your own . Your job can be boring as hell , it can be soul-sucking , it can be life negating , it can almost kill you , but you can bring yourself back to life by taking ownership of your car . Nobody said you had to take the straightest route , take the longest route , take the

The Art of Changing the Subject

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long way around . Take a different long way home . Take the bus , walk , hitchhike . Take mass transit of other kinds . Petition for a roller coaster to be put in your community as mass transit . It's not the most efficient way to get there but it's pretty damn exciting . You sit through a lot of boring work , a lot of pointless meetings , a lot of BS . If you can pack a little bit of excitement into that part of the day that is your own . You don't get paid for commuting but you're not really expected to do anything else .

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I like the smell of money . I don't have to work . Ava allows me to work . She insists on paying for everything and kind of holds it over my head but says I can make it up to her by sleeping with her friends . Sometimes we do three ways .

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I'm sure there are women who aren't into women , but those women are mysterious to me . How could you not be into women .

Serendipity's Squeeze: A Bite-Sized Erotic Thriller

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Have you seen women ? Ava's into women and even if women aren't into women , they're into Ava . Sometimes with sex toys or household objects , the sex is bananas . Ava puts a lot of pressure on me to do whatever her friends want . That's fine .

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I hate making decisions . It's particularly hard to decide between Ava and Clover when we were interested . It hopes that it would be reciprocated . If it's not , not the end of the world . You know , you played your hand . You played well . Hopefully you can part friends . Just don't make it weird . As long as you don't do that , if you just walk away with your dignity and you will feel like there's nobody else but there is .

The Best of All Possible Eyes Without a Face

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Just once you get out there you'll see there's not one person , there's a whole lot of them . You are the fetish of at least a few .

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The thing is , if you're as bad at picking up on stuff as I can be and used to really really be , any sort of social acuity that you see here in front of you is largely attributable to improv classes that I took in my 20s . I struggled before that . I'm not great at picking up on signals and that meant that women that I ended up in relationships with had a lot of intensity Enough to you know , come after a guy , fairly aggressively in some cases . So I was tent about to kidnapping . You know what I'm talking about .

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Kick that cocaine . It's the only thing cramping your style , baby . They've got too much going for you . They have stuff going up your nose like that . I know what's up with that . Yeah , I'm tired of it .

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It was fun 18 months ago back when we were kicking it , but I was kicking it with you and unkicking that cocaine . I

Something New and Familiar All at Once

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know you're back on it too . You got to do something about that . It's going to be real hard to get off it . Like some other things that are real hard higher level calculus that's hard . Cement things of that nature .

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The bottom of the pool you dive in the shallow end . You hit your head . That's real hard . Kicking cocaine's not that hard .

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The hard part is the first part , kind of like my hard part has always been the first part . Starting a new lifestyle , it's like that . You got style , you want to get in your life , get in some other things , get in the program . No , I'm not talking about 12-stepping , I'm not talking about half-stepping . Got another kind of program in mind baby , based on Buddhism . I realized where I screwed up , I realized that I could resolve to never do the exact same thing again , that I could honor my commitment . I'm just capable of that . I always have been Honoring your commitments , and living in integrities is just a process of elimination .

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Yes , I think you're brilliant , otherwise I wouldn't have said that I don't want to make your head explode . You're

Heaving Hearts, Clandestine Clubs, and Deadly Desires

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not stupid . Whatever the opposite of that is . If we ever really understand intelligence , you'll be in that category . Maybe pass the missile , take a beat , breathe into the experience of being here and ask yourself what am I so afraid of ? Maybe you're afraid of missing some essential life experience .

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You're afraid you already have , or that it doesn't matter because nothing does . Maybe it's nothing . Maybe you're just a regular nerves McGee . Or maybe

Embrace Chaos: Self-Love, Sadism, and the Power of Creativity

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you're afraid of your own glorious cataclysmic power , the riotous multitudes you contain . You are smart enough to know how nearly infinitely ignorant you are , but you're not too smart to be hot , and you may already be a satanic Buddhist . Nothing is good or bad in isolation , only in context . The Buddha and the Beastmaster are a good team . This , right here , is all you get . Life is for living up down across , diagonally , sideways , because nothing matters . You may already be a Satanic Buddhist . Springtime rolled around and the weather was warm and my heart was broken . The Comedia was long gone and , frankly , I was thankful for the Comedia because that proved that that relationship really happened .

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She was there on my mattress on the floor . She was there , I was there . It's over now , but it all really happened .

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Emerson Dameron

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